Britney Spears: “It’s bad. I’m sad.” (VIDEO)

Britney Spears poured out her heart in the long anticipated MTV documentary Britney: For The Record. She admitted she still feels very sad, despite her successful comeback and a new album that comes out today, on Brit´s 27th birthday. She said she´s now eager to find a new man and get married soon, but finds it difficult to trust people.

: “I let bad people in because I was lonely and I really paid the consequences for that big time. I am very protective of myself. Sometimes it can get kind of lonely. But I’m going to get married next year and have babies. Watch!That would be heaven for me, to have my kids on an island and a man and no-one could get to us. That’s my thing. When I really love somebody I really love somebody. I give my all. I can’t get enough. I need to be around them all the time. It’s just the best feeling in the world when they give me that feeling.”

- She told how she feels too controlled and said: “You can’t really go there in a complete state of happiness because you’re scared it’s going to be taken away. ‘So it’s better just not to feel anything at all and to have hope to feel the other way…. When I tell people the way I feel they hear me, but they’re really not listening. They hear what they want to hear. They don’t really listen to what I’m telling them. It’s bad. I’m sad. I used to be a cool chick and I feel like the paparazzi has taken my whole cool slang away from me. Like going out and doing stuff and like seeing a guy and hanging out. The way I used to live, I was a pretty cool chick, and I’m not really that anymore.”

- Britney also explained her erratic behviour which followed her split from husband Kevin Federline: “People started thinking I was on drugs. You would think that I would have gone home, I would have taken the kids and I would have gone to Louisiana. I think back now and I’m like, “Why didn’t I in that fragile of a state?” I’m breastfeeding one kid and the other one’s with me and I have a nanny. Why didn’t I just up and go to Louisiana?… People thought it was me going crazy and stuff, but people shave their heads all the time.”

-  Britney concluded by saying she really wants to change her ways: “Everything is coming together right now. I’m ready to make this a really good phase in my life. I choose to be a happy person. I choose not to be a bitter person. If I have a bad day I get really angry with myself. I have no regrets because I think everything happens for a reason. I just have to look back and say it is what it is and learn from my mistakes and just listen to my instincts more. I’m a true believer in that it’s all in perspective and let’s be positive, and let’s do that. And me sitting here complaining and stuff like that, I hate it. I hate it when people do that.

- Madonna told the film crew: “There is fragility about her and vulnerability about her that makes me feel maternally towards her.”